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Hi again,

I want to tell you guys i have a new blogging place now and it's blogspot. Here is my new URL:

http://barneyblackhole.blogspot.com/

I will still update here when i have updated my new blog so you guys will get a MSN notification.

Thanks for your support and see you in BLOGSPOT!

Today i woke up 6am++. Why i so early? Because later i will be going for a surgery like what i said on my earlier post here. I had a cup of Milo and a slice of bread. That's all i can have and i cannot drink or eat anything now until after the surgery. I am really going to be very thirsty and hungry after the surgery. So for those who want to come visit me during my recovery, please bring some food and better if you come on Monday night. I cannot go anywhere for the next 24 hours so feel free to bring me food, i'll be very happy. My parents still not back yet from Aussie so i'm all alone at home.

Yesterday my favorite team MU lost in the FACUP semi final. Mu didn't deserve this lost. SAF filled in kids to play and took a very big gamble. Okie...the young lads proved them self but still....it's a semi final for god sake! Why fill kids to play!? The next thing i want to blame is Berbatov...the most useless striker in the world. He cost MU 30m and guess what....he took a penalty yesterday which he kicked so soft, even my sister couldn't have saved it or kick better than him! I am speechless...devastated because MU lost and won't be going for clean sweep of 5 trophies.

Well, it's a frustrating Monday for me. Cannot eat or drink anything for now, don’t know who is going to fetch me to hospital later (i think i'll just take a cab later) because i cannot drive, MU lost, and it's just MONDAY! Well, when there are ups there are always downs. Oh God, i hope things will turn out better for me.

Gonna stop here. Until we meet again here, see ya~

11^th of April. That’s the date today and I am back here blogging. I just had my Lunch. Well...a lot has happened since I last put my words here so let me tell you guys.

This week I felt useless, as in I cannot help anyone. For my whole life I have always put myself 2^nd in life. Whenever I see or felt anyone in trouble, I will always try and give a helping hand if they need one. Why I do this? It’s because I CARE. If I wouldn’t have care in the first place, I couldn’t be bothered at all but that’s not me. I just can’t bear to see someone sad/troubled because it will affect me in too. You guys know me, I don’t like to see anyone mood goes down. It just kills me. I believe we should be happy at all times, not the other way round. Yes, shit happens but are you going to let this shit stay there longer? When I face shit, I will find a way to clean the shit ASAP so it won’t come back again. I am going to be honest here, I normally can sense someone emotion just by reading someone typing, body language and hearing that person talk. I can catch roughly what is going on inside. I may not me 100% accurate but I normally guess correctly. This not a talent I have. It’s like you have been keeping in touch with someone quite often, an example I put here is someone who is talkative. Then 1 day you met this person is acting a bit weird, you felt the frequency change in this person all the sudden. It’s like he/she is not him/herself. Now that is how I sense someone. You know, I have been told by my friends before this “hey Benny, are you alright? You don’t seem to be yourself today”. See? Even my friends can catch me whenever I change my frequency to something unpleasant just by reading my body language, and the words I use. I am not trying to say I am very good at catching someone’s frequency change but whenever I sense it, I normally will try and change the frequency back to normal. I don’t want to know why someone changes their frequency in detailed but I just want to give encouraging words. Words that will bring back smiles that everyone want to see. Like I said last time, life is not easy to begin. It does always have been hard and it’s up to you to keep it going. Friends (like me) only can give you encouraging words to bring your sense back again. With the words given, you have to stand up yourself, and walk forward on your own. I will only be by your side when you need companion but to solve your problem, you have to do it yourself. Well, it seems I failed to do that this week but I won’t give up. It’s my duty, to see you smile at all times. It’s my duty, to keep you away from troubled times.

OKIE! Let’s change topic. I have something to announce here. On the 20^th April, I will be going to Assunta Hospital for a surgery. I know you guys must be saying “HEY! Why are you going for a surgery suddenly? Is there something wrong with you?”. Well, there is nothing wrong with me. I am going for non life threatening surgery so no need to worry. It’s my own will that I have decided to get this surgery done. I have thought of doing it for a long time already and I finally found the right time to do it because I am claiming it fully from my company insurance policy. I know guys will ask me “A sex change Benny?”, I have to say NO! I’m not getting a sex change ok! I am doing this surgery for my future and hygiene purpose. I have a SMALL problem it seems on my surgery day. You see, it’s a working day and my parents left for Aussie yesterday, my brother will be at work, friends will be at work and left me alone on that day. I can find my own way to the hospital but it seems the after the surgery, I am not allowed to drive back home because during the surgery I will be given anesthetic and when I wake up from the surgery, chance I will feel groggy. So the hospital will only allow me to go back home if someone will claim me and fetch me back home after the surgery. It’s a working day and I none of my family member will be around so I have to depend on my friends now. I am thinking, who I should trouble to come and claim me that day. I feel bad though because they will have to take ½ day leave which I don’t want to disturb them. Don’t worry, I will find someone who if free that day. I still have time to think. I will be out from work for at least 1-2 weeks after the surgery. Depends on my recovery. I can consider this as my holiday break lo....HEHEHE

Tmr is Sunday and i will have a few guest over at my home. Well, i decided to cook my guest a Japanese dinner. It's a pretty simple dinner. Since my parent are not at home i shall take advantage and use the kitchen. I have always wanted to cook and why not i share it with my guest. I wanna find back my cooking touch again because i do enjoy cooking meals i like to eat! I am very particular in making delicious meal because if it comes out horrible, i will find another way to make it nicer.

Alright, I guess it’s time to stop my writing. It’s getting too lengthy and I bet you all are going to fall asleep already. About me being useless don’t worry. I have plans. About my surgery, like I said it’s not life threatening and I will find out a way to get back home after the surgery. Like I said again, I always have plans but I just need to think of the best way. Anyway, take care my friends. I’m off~

WTH! It's april! 1/4 of 2009 gone in a flash. What did i achieved so far? i don't think i have achieved anything yet.

I am feeling sucky now in the morning. I don't feel like doing anything. I have a big day tmr to prove myself but i kinda lost my motivation to do it thanks to some distractions. All the sudden i feel so...lost. Don't know what should i do the next min of my life. It's been pretty shitty these days for me. Lucky i have my friends around to keep it off my mind. Ya know...crazy friends. Been spending alot of time with them and geez...it just get crazier all the time....lol. Well, that's the fun part isn't it?

Recently a few of my friend came to me to seek help. Seeking advice on how to keep them going in life. Well, like i do always, i give them my point of view. Ah...it seems everyone is facing the problems all the time, not just me. As for me, i do things the solo way. I would like accomplish things myself with out seeking help first unless i really need a helping hand from someone. But that rarely happens. It's just my self esteem.

Shuck...its only 930am now and i haven't taken anything for my breakfast except for an orange juice. I feel like going to sleep because i am still tired. May be later i'll take a rest but i have things to settle today.

Ok...im off blogging. Later...