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7月8日

Very busy July

http://barneyblackhole.blogspot.com/2009/07/very-busy-july.html

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5月31日

Exactly 1 year ago

http://barneyblackhole.blogspot.com/2009/05/exactly-1-year-ago_31.html
5月3日

May, please be different than April

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4月24日

Ol season just past and a brand new exciting season opens for me

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4月22日

A new blogging home for BaRNeY

Hi again,

I want to tell you guys i have a new blogging place now and it's blogspot. Here is my new URL:

http://barneyblackhole.blogspot.com/

I will still update here when i have updated my new blog so you guys will get a MSN notification.

Thanks for your support and see you in BLOGSPOT!
4月20日

Frustration on Monday

Today i woke up 6am++. Why i so early? Because later i will be going for a surgery like what i said on my earlier post here. I had a cup of Milo and a slice of bread. That's all i can have and i cannot drink or eat anything now until after the surgery. I am really going to be very thirsty and hungry after the surgery. So for those who want to come visit me during my recovery, please bring some food and better if you come on Monday night. I cannot go anywhere for the next 24 hours so feel free to bring me food, i'll be very happy. My parents still not back yet from Aussie so i'm all alone at home.

Yesterday my favorite team MU lost in the FACUP semi final. Mu didn't deserve this lost. SAF filled in kids to play and took a very big gamble. Okie...the young lads proved them self but still....it's a semi final for god sake! Why fill kids to play!? The next thing i want to blame is Berbatov...the most useless striker in the world. He cost MU 30m and guess what....he took a penalty yesterday which he kicked so soft, even my sister couldn't have saved it or kick better than him! I am speechless...devastated because MU lost and won't be going for clean sweep of 5 trophies.

Well, it's a frustrating Monday for me. Cannot eat or drink anything for now, don’t know who is going to fetch me to hospital later (i think i'll just take a cab later) because i cannot drive, MU lost, and it's just MONDAY! Well, when there are ups there are always downs. Oh God, i hope things will turn out better for me.

Gonna stop here. Until we meet again here, see ya~

4月11日

Useless me

11th of April. That’s the date today and I am back here blogging. I just had my Lunch. Well...a lot has happened since I last put my words here so let me tell you guys.

This week I felt useless, as in I cannot help anyone. For my whole life I have always put myself 2nd in life. Whenever I see or felt anyone in trouble, I will always try and give a helping hand if they need one. Why I do this? It’s because I CARE. If I wouldn’t have care in the first place, I couldn’t be bothered at all but that’s not me. I just can’t bear to see someone sad/troubled because it will affect me in too. You guys know me, I don’t like to see anyone mood goes down. It just kills me. I believe we should be happy at all times, not the other way round. Yes, shit happens but are you going to let this shit stay there longer? When I face shit, I will find a way to clean the shit ASAP so it won’t come back again. I am going to be honest here, I normally can sense someone emotion just by reading someone typing, body language and hearing that person talk. I can catch roughly what is going on inside. I may not me 100% accurate but I normally guess correctly. This not a talent I have. It’s like you have been keeping in touch with someone quite often, an example I put here is someone who is talkative. Then 1 day you met this person is acting a bit weird, you felt the frequency change in this person all the sudden. It’s like he/she is not him/herself. Now that is how I sense someone. You know, I have been told by my friends before this “hey Benny, are you alright? You don’t seem to be yourself today”. See? Even my friends can catch me whenever I change my frequency to something unpleasant just by reading my body language, and the words I use. I am not trying to say I am very good at catching someone’s frequency change but whenever I sense it, I normally will try and change the frequency back to normal. I don’t want to know why someone changes their frequency in detailed but I just want to give encouraging words. Words that will bring back smiles that everyone want to see. Like I said last time, life is not easy to begin. It does always have been hard and it’s up to you to keep it going. Friends (like me) only can give you encouraging words to bring your sense back again. With the words given, you have to stand up yourself, and walk forward on your own. I will only be by your side when you need companion but to solve your problem, you have to do it yourself. Well, it seems I failed to do that this week but I won’t give up. It’s my duty, to see you smile at all times. It’s my duty, to keep you away from troubled times.

OKIE! Let’s change topic. I have something to announce here. On the 20th April, I will be going to Assunta Hospital for a surgery. I know you guys must be saying “HEY! Why are you going for a surgery suddenly? Is there something wrong with you?”. Well, there is nothing wrong with me. I am going for non life threatening surgery so no need to worry. It’s my own will that I have decided to get this surgery done. I have thought of doing it for a long time already and I finally found the right time to do it because I am claiming it fully from my company insurance policy. I know guys will ask me “A sex change Benny?”, I have to say NO! I’m not getting a sex change ok! I am doing this surgery for my future and hygiene purpose. I have a SMALL problem it seems on my surgery day. You see, it’s a working day and my parents left for Aussie yesterday, my brother will be at work, friends will be at work and left me alone on that day. I can find my own way to the hospital but it seems the after the surgery, I am not allowed to drive back home because during the surgery I will be given anesthetic and when I wake up from the surgery, chance I will feel groggy. So the hospital will only allow me to go back home if someone will claim me and fetch me back home after the surgery. It’s a working day and I none of my family member will be around so I have to depend on my friends now. I am thinking, who I should trouble to come and claim me that day. I feel bad though because they will have to take ½ day leave which I don’t want to disturb them. Don’t worry, I will find someone who if free that day. I still have time to think. I will be out from work for at least 1-2 weeks after the surgery. Depends on my recovery. I can consider this as my holiday break lo....HEHEHE

Tmr is Sunday and i will have a few guest over at my home. Well, i decided to cook my guest a Japanese dinner. It's a pretty simple dinner. Since my parent are not at home i shall take advantage and use the kitchen. I have always wanted to cook and why not i share it with my guest. I wanna find back my cooking touch again because i do enjoy cooking meals i like to eat! I am very particular in making delicious meal because if it comes out horrible, i will find another way to make it nicer.

Alright, I guess it’s time to stop my writing. It’s getting too lengthy and I bet you all are going to fall asleep already. About me being useless don’t worry. I have plans. About my surgery, like I said it’s not life threatening and I will find out a way to get back home after the surgery. Like I said again, I always have plans but I just need to think of the best way. Anyway, take care my friends. I’m off~

4月5日

April already

WTH! It's april! 1/4 of 2009 gone in a flash. What did i achieved so far? i don't think i have achieved anything yet.

I am feeling sucky now in the morning. I don't feel like doing anything. I have a big day tmr to prove myself but i kinda lost my motivation to do it thanks to some distractions. All the sudden i feel so...lost. Don't know what should i do the next min of my life. It's been pretty shitty these days for me. Lucky i have my friends around to keep it off my mind. Ya know...crazy friends. Been spending alot of time with them and geez...it just get crazier all the time....lol. Well, that's the fun part isn't it?

Recently a few of my friend came to me to seek help. Seeking advice on how to keep them going in life. Well, like i do always, i give them my point of view. Ah...it seems everyone is facing the problems all the time, not just me. As for me, i do things the solo way. I would like accomplish things myself with out seeking help first unless i really need a helping hand from someone. But that rarely happens. It's just my self esteem.

Shuck...its only 930am now and i haven't taken anything for my breakfast except for an orange juice. I feel like going to sleep because i am still tired. May be later i'll take a rest but i have things to settle today.

Ok...im off blogging. Later...
3月14日

Men best friend

Ok, that title i got it from a movie called "Marley and Me" that i just watched at 1U earlier. It's a really touching story about a dog's life with it's master until the very last moment of the dog's life. Seriously i like really like dogs but not as much after i watched that movie it made me feel that dogs really do understand humans feeling. It's something like when you need someone to accompany when you're not being yourself, men best friend which is the dog will be by your side no matter what. The dog seems to understand you and sit beside you all the time. It like the dog knows your entire problem and no matter what the dog will still be beside you, trying to understand you. The sad part of the movie is, the dog died of old age and the family that owned the dog was really really sad. I can hear people cry in silent but i don't blame them. Who wouldn't? Well i didn't shed any drop of tears but that movie surely did touch me. May be i should get a dog in the future, and a cat together. Who said cat and dog cannot live together? I'll prove them wrong! Well, not sure when that will happen but 1 thing for sure is, i am bound to go crazy when i get a dog but that's life isn't it? Tell me which human would go through total smoothness in their life ever? For sure there will be road blocks, humps, dead end and potholes on every road journey you take. It's how you think of a way to avoid and if you still hit anyone of them, learn from the mistake and try to avoid it next time. Surely there will be bitter and sweet times. All we can do hope for the best but if shit happens, clean up the shit and move on.

That is what i am doing.  I have fallen on the ground, stood up for myself again and walk too many times. I seriously wanted to quit standing up again and let it be like that forever BUT i cannot. I want to live my life to the fullest. So no matter how many times i fall, i will still get up and walk, jog or run to the finish line. I cannot just quit here because i believe hard work does paid off. I want to show that i am trying my level best to walk, jog or run to the finish line. May be it will take me a little longer to reach the finish line but still, i believe the "judge" will see that i have a strong will inside me to get to the finish line. In life nothing is easy, you have to work hard to get what you want in life. Nothing comes easy. I know putting 101% into it. I am halfway already, why quit now? You still wont get anything but if you finish it, you will get appreciation which i think that is PRICELESS.  I need your support/cheering to help me get to the finish line. I know what i want, and i only have 1 life to do it. So please if you see me fall and don't get up, scold the hell out of me! Bring me back the sense!!!

Alright, enough of me bragging. If you have haven't watch Marley and me you can give it a try. It's worth it. Oh well...it's 1:47am and i am feeling very tired and sleepy. I think i am falling sick already because i felt abit feverish since this evening but i think im still good. So until my next level of entry here...see ya~
3月10日

i am drifting away slowly

Alright, it's the beginning of March of 2009 and i've gotta say time flies. Before you knew it it's middle of the year. Damn it...why is time ticking so fast? Well...i just got back home from office and i have this feeling like "i am being drifted away slowly on sea". I kinda feel like my life is missing something and that i am not living to achieve it. I hated this feeling inside me. This is not the 1st time i am feeling this. I feel like sreaming this now "WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME!?". That's form a song called Chop Suey by System Of a Down Under. The vocalist would scream so loud that word and it makes me want to scream along.

Sorry, i am a little not right today. I just feel like going out and break something but i can't. Well....shit happens, too many times may be but shit does happens. Well, i will be alright. I just need time. May be tomorrow i will be fine. Just don't feel like doing anything today. Guess i will give my guitar 1 day off.

Until shit doesn't happen again...later~
2月21日

Days after CNY 09

It's 8am and im awake on a Saturday Morning. For the last few weeks i didn't get a good sleep. Sometimes i just cannot sleep until like 4-5am only i am able to sleep due to tiredness i think. It's not that i don't go to bed early. Weekdays i normally go to bed around 12am and weekend around 1-2am depending on my activities but for the past few weeks i have been thinking a lot so i guess that's the cause of it. BUT im all good for the past few days. I try not to think a lot and just let my life flow...
 
Alright, CNY 09 is officially over. I seriously had a great CNY till the very end. Believe it or not i am still playing Mahjong with my kaki and we played it just yesterday! No i don't gamble that is for sure and we're just playing for fun only. Mahjong can train your brain you know!
 
Oh ya, i got something to tell you guys. You all know me wanting to go Aussie right? I know some of you all have actually tried to talk me out on going aussie by giving the reasons like "you have friends like us here, want to go there meh!?", or "you go there got no durian, junk food to eat, where got nice!", or "there so boring, for sure you'll come back crying!", and this is the killer one "Do you really want to go over there when you have not accomplish something here? Do you really want to go Benny? Ask yourself what you want most?" and many more. So...all the influence has played a big part and i must say i have put Aussie a side temporally for now. This is not a permanent thing for me. Even if i get my Aussie PR this year i still have 5 years to decide to go in or not. I want to say is this, i like it here but i don't see myself staying here long term. BUT, there is something i know which i don't think i can get in Aussie. So for me it's the most important thing now and i want to make it HAPPEN! Yes...that word "HAPPEN" i put all in caps. I am willing to sacrifice here. Well, a man just has to do what a man is best at. May be you all will still see me running around in KL so stat tune for my final answer. So wish me luck and i'll give it all i've got :)
 
Some of you guys may know that i have my own guitar youtube channel and for the past few months, i have received a lot personal msg and comments about my guitar playing and it seems i got positive feedback! I was even invited by someone to join WekaStar.Com - Online Amateur Music Competition. If i get selected i will get my own record deal. Don't think i want to join this one but 1 thing for sure is, i know i am practicing guitar the right way :)
 
Alright...gonna continue playing my guitar now. I'll see you guys again someday ya...take care~
2月5日

The year of the OX

Well...i am back at my usual spot after 1 month...hehe. Okie...its a brand new chinese new year and this time its the year of the Ox. I heard that this Ox year, those born in the boar year will not be have such a good year. So since i am one of the boar...i will try to be extra careful this year as i am expecting alot of things to happen this year for me alone.
 
So....it's 11 days after CNY and i am still in holiday mood. During my 2 weeks break for CNY i had alot alot alot alot of FUN! With my family and friends of course! Went and gamble with small kids and lost a few dollors, played mahjong with my close friends and went bankrup 3 times, went ti malaka visit colleagues, went for my primary school reunion and that was the best! I have to say this is the best CNY i had in years even if my kampung was in KL! Ah...if only i could have fun like this every month once also puas la...hahahaha.
 
After my 2 weeks of break now i am back to work...geez, my engine still haven't warm up for work. Going to work and seeing all the email, work left for me was so crazy! I kinda had a honeymoon for the past 2 months in the office coz my projects all finished. Now its the beginning of 2009 and projects are starting to come in and i am going to be very very busy in 1 month time i predict. I hope my upcoming projects will be smooth sailing. I cannot say i dont want to encounter any problems but i'll just want to minimize it...hehe
 
I am really really really (yes , i repeated it 3 times) looking forward to this year. I am expecting a lot of big big thinsg to happen like i told you guys before. So, wish me luck ya. I'll need all the luck i can this year. That's all from me for now. Catch you guys another time here then!
1月1日

It's 1/1/09 today!!!

Gosh....for the last 7 days, i have been enjoying myself a lot. First was xmas eve in Singapore playing spray foam with kids but what's best was my old buddy Weng Soon was in Singapore too and we had a blast! I gotta know a lot more new friends in Singapore too!

 

Well after xmas eve then there is new year's eve! Me and my colleagues decided to go countdown in Quattro in AvenueK. Another old friend of mine yee lin was going there too so we celebrated together with her friends there. It was one hella crazy night! We were at autumn and it was too crowded and it didn't felt lika autumn so we went to winter. Now winter...that room is around 10c only and it was cold! Just what i wanted. Best thing winter room was playing trance music, just my kind of of music to get me to new year! There is even a small room that's -5c but only could fit 5 people at a time. We took come crazee shots inside that winter room. Ah....winter, i really liked winter during my aussie days in the past. Then it was new year 2009!!! We drank, we cheered and danced with everyone! It was freaking awesome! Then we decided to call it quit around 3am and shoot off to Sri Petaling to have dim sum. 1st time i ate dim sum so early in da morning. After that we went off home.

 

It's was on freaking awesome party and im sure everyone enjoyed welcoming 2009. So...today, 1st of January 2009. I shall start this year with new beginning, and new hope. I have goals i am trying to achieve so wish me luck for this year. May i with you all HAPPY NEW YEAR and i hope this year will bring more happiness than sadness to everyone! Let's go through 2009 together and don't forget to take care!

12月30日

2009, here i come!!!

HELLO!!! SOOOOOO LONG since i last appear here and im back after like 2 months ++. First time i didn't blog for so long but not to worry. I’m back here with a BANG!!

Let's see...what have i missed....hm....oh....let’s talk about my work....during oct-november was a crazy month for me at work. I was so busy rushing a few project and almost went 'kuku' but i managed to finish it mid November. Then very little project starts to come in because year 2008 is coming to an end. So i was like shaking leg in office most of the time. Got work but it's not a lot. I still can go lepak at colleague place keng kai for like few hours...lol.

During the Nov and December month i have a few invitations, one of them is my ex-colleague Patrick Law on November at Puchong and my old college class mate Bee Teng last week and this was held in Singapore. So consider me very very broke by the end of year 2008. Before Bee Teng's wedding, me and my other friends had an intention to go and celebrate Christmas in Singapore and we did actually! So since Bee Teng's wedding was on 27th Dec, might as well i go down to Singapore on the 24th Dec and lepak there until 28th Dec. So let me start off what exactly happened during my 24-28 Dec in Singapore

On the 24th, me WK drove down to JB together around 8am and reached around 12pm++ in JB. We stopped at my Aunt place for a while to pass some stuff and then we went off and had lunch in JB town and after that, off we went in to Singapore. We took a bus in Singapore from the new JB checkpoint and it wasn't that bad the jam. When we're in Singapore, we went to Cityhall to find Lenny. Actually my purpose of finding Lenny was to lend her EZ link card. Meet up with Lenny around 4pm at City hall and boy....it was getting crowded already around the City area. Guess everyone is getting ready to celebrate Xmas. Lenny finished work already 4pm because it's half day work for her company so she accompanied me and WK shopping. Everywhere was sales and the amount of people buying things was like....no need money. I manage to buy ESPRIT clothing in Singapore and it was quite cheap and i had a 10% off on all discounted items because i have the ESPRIT card. After shopping Lenny didn't join us for dinner as she want to go back and rest. So me and WK meet up with her friend at AMK and headed off to Orchard to have Japanese dinner. It was raining in Orchard but that didn't stop the crowd to increase. After Japanese food i meet up with my ol pal Weng Soon in Orchard and he had a crazy night there. We bought those spray cans and start to spray anyone we see on the street and i got myself wet too because of that. I had a funny moment when we played the spraying thing but i shall not go in detailed :P.  We was at orchard until 2am and headed off to bukit batok and slept over at Chrys friends house.

Then it was 25th and i went back to JB for a while to have Xmas lunch with my Aunt and took my ride in Singapore. I meet up with Bee teng, and she took me the place where i will stay in Singapore. It was a Bungalow and in front was a park and sea side. 25th i didn't really go anywhere and i was at the bungalow waiting for the rest of them to arrive. So this was what i did. I slept for a while woke up and found out my white car become black car already. So i decided to wash my car in SINGAPORE! HEHEHE, 1st time man i was my car in Singapore and you know in front of the bungalow is a park and a a lot people walk past the bungalow and looked at me washing my "sport" car and it's a Malaysian registered plate. I bet they are saying "what is this guy doing washing is car here? and i stare back at them and was trying to send them this msg "what! Never seen anyone wash a Malaysian car before in Singapore?". At night we had dinner in Tampanis and i meet up with Lenny again and we was supposed to buy food for our BBQ session but in the end we didn't due to the respond was really poor. So...WK luggage was with me and i have to send her back to her friend's place in Tampanis from Pasir Ris then i sent Lenny home and i was at home like 1130pm.

26th everyone have their own plan and we went separately. I was with WK and we went sightseeing around Cityhall's durian building and the Lion spitting water place. WK said the durian looked more like a cempedak....to me honest i think it looked more like a cempedak too but because Singaporean like Durian a lot and they cannot grow their own durian's so they decided to name it Durian. LOL...forget about the durian and cempedak stories i was telling earlier, i was just crapping. Went to Dolby Gought and stopped at the guitar shop where i bought my Taylor Guitar. Wanted to buy a guitar bag but it was sold out. Too bad...then we went off to Bugis to do more shopping. You know...Chrys said she wanted to join us for shopping on the 27th but in the end FFK us and this is not the 1st time! WK was alone shopping for her ladies clothing with no another lady companion.. After that we headed off to Vivo City and we're going to meet up with Lenny, Herlena, Weng soon, Stacie and Pui Yee. I recommended them to eat this place called "bosses" to me they have the best 'xiao long pao' and the dishes are good too. There was 7 of us and the billed came out to SGD152.05 and it's on me. They insisted we go dutch but refused and bought them dinner. Buying them dinner once in a while ok la...and after all they bought me dinner before too. There was this huge xmas tree on top of vivo city and we took pictures. We wanted to go Clarke Quay but it was really late already and if he go there drink for sure we will have to take a cab back. It was weng soon's initial last day in Singapore but since i drove in and still have 2 more space...they decided to follow me back on 28th dec so we can go clarke quay again for a drink this time.

27th was Bee Teng and Land King big day. I was with them early in the Morning until after the wedding lunch. We had great fun and took a lot of pictures. I would like to congratulate Bee Teng and Land King for tying the knot finally after so many year. May i wish the both you have a wonderful journey together. The wedding lunch was good but to me it's a bit too high class. It's like this...you wont be able to see the food on the table but they will serve you small individual plates and it's like they have calculated the amout of food for you. So everyone will have 2 vegs, 2 squids, 2 meats. Something like that. Might as well they just spoon feed us the food. I just need to open my mouth and let them put the food inside and chew. That's the feeling. I would like the traditional way of we take what we want. After the wedding i rushed off to Sentosa Island and meet up with WK, Vivian and LM. We only manage to ride on the LUGE. It's like a riding on a go cart just that it don’t have an engine and u are rolling down hill. It's damn fun!! The LUGE motto was "once is never enough" and boy it was so true. We wanted go on the ride again but it was late already and we have this "song of the sea" which Lenny highly recommended us which was about to start. And it was really nice....very creative this Singaporean. After song of the sea we headed back to vivo took a cab to Holland village to have this buffet steamboat. They have this 'xiao long pao' but it was not as good as bosses. Weng soon was at clarke quay and waiting for us but we it was really late already so we didn't meet them there. We did the craziest thing at holland village. We stand at the street and talk rubbish then sit down at the food court and started to play games and talk jokes. Then we went to a closed coffee bean shop, sit at the dark and talk ghost story until 6am!!!! Then we took the 1st bus back to the nearest MRT and went back to our home. I manage to sleep only 1 hour ++ before i got up, took a shower and checked out 10am. Fetched weng soon and stacie. Best thing was i need to drive back to KL on that day. I was really tired and i manage to drive back safely and my Singapore trip came to an end.

I would like to thank Peter, Shu Shan, Gretal and especially Lenny for spending time with me in Singapore for the past 3 months. Don't think i can see so much without you guys in Singapore. So thanks again, i really appreciate what you guys have done for me. Don’t think I will be in Singapore any time in a few years time. Will see how it goes

There you go...my last blog for the year 2008. I went through good run in the beginning of the year but it slowly start to turn from bad to worst around mid of 2008. The past is the past and im through with it. Now im looking forward to the year 2009 and will face new challenges. Hopefully i will have a smooth ride during 2009. I have nothing more to wish for and just 1 with i have left and i am sure you guys know what i am wishing it for. Hopefully i can accomplish this by year 2009.

Ok....time to stop here. Take care my friends and i shall see you all next year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!